Keeping the Faith

"Faith is a leap into the dark..."

Funny how the mind can perform mental gymnastics, playing a constant tug-of-war with itself, even during one's sleep, isn't it?

How does one carry on believing, in the face of what one believes to be incontrovertible evidence? Turn a blind eye? Ignore the "red finger pointing" to the obvious? Pretend all's well and act like nothing has changed (well, maybe slightly)?

Is it that much harder to just accept the inevitable? Would it require as much energy to accept and move on than to fight it? And what of all the energy expended in fighting off the inevitable? Would more kicking and screaming on the way out necessarily endow that which has been let go with more value?

Not denial, not the strength of memories, not even what you want badly, can undo a decision made. A heart changed.